I am going to deviate from my normal style of writing these blogs today, instead of expounding on Scripture I am going to expound on something one of my favorite authors has written.
"... Christ says 'give me all.' .... 'I want you. I have not come to torment your natural self, but to kill it. No half-measures are any good.' .... 'Hand over the whole natural self, all the desires which you think innocent as well as the ones you think wicked -- the whole outfit. I will give you a new self instead. In fact I will give you Myself: my own will shall become yours.'
C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity chapter 8, Book 4
If you have never read C.S. Lewis's books on Christianity you have missed a great deal. This great thinker from the 20th century wrote in such a way that the difficult can be understood. And, each time you read his work something new will pop out at you.
The chapter this selection comes from is titled, "Is Christianity Hard or Easy?",
My answer to the question he purposes is, it is both, hard and easy.
It is hard because everything within us rebels at the at the mere idea of turning our natural selves over to Jesus to remake us. Our egos scream, "What will become of us", the world around us tells us we must be self-made, Counselors and advisers tell us we must change ourselves, be adaptable. Fear screams "then we will become puppets". Our insecurities tells us we are not worthy or able to live up to Gods standards. "It's just too hard" we tell ourselves.
I believe that is why many, if not most, conversions come at a point of crises in a persons life, a time when self has utterly failed.
But we do not need to come to a crises to arrive at this point. We just need to see and understand we are not actually giving God anything He does not already posses. A story from C.S. Lewis also illustrates this point well, I'll paraphrase. We must come to the point of realizing that giving ourselves to God is much like the child who comes to his father and asks for money to buy his dad a birthday gift.The gift is bought and given yet no one in a pure worldly fashion would say the dad is any better off for it. Yet the dad is pleased and the child is filled with joy at the expression of love and acceptance by the dad. God already "owns" us, but we rebel at that very thought, it is the giving up of our rebellion, that pleases the Father and He shall reward us with Love and Acceptance.
So why is it easy?
Because the work that is to proceed is not done by ourselves alone but by the Holy Spirit within.
Our job then is to recognize the character flaw, the miss-used instinct, the self-centered desire,within our self, repent of it and expect the Holy Spirit to begin to remove it from us, of course repentance does mean we must try our hardest to right the wrong but we will not be alone or powerless in doing this.
Perhaps that is why Jesus said:
Mat 16:24 Then said Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me.
Mat 11:30 For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. ]